Things seemed to be going well, and then Sunday morning was difficult. My husband had not put on the clean clothes I had put out for him, which meant he was going to church in stained pants. He also had not combed his hair and needed a shave. Although I had allowed an hour and a half to get ready, he was not ready. All he had to do was go to the bathroom, get dressed, and comb his hair. I hurriedly finished getting him ready and gave him something to eat, found his glasses, and tried to quickly shave him. I then prepared to leave realizing I had not eaten, made out the check, or done any of the things I needed to do. He is no longer able to exit the house through the garage, so we tried to go out the front door. He had a lot of difficulty getting out. I realized that he is going to be housebound very shortly. The rest of the day was just frustrating, but normal. Monday morning our day started when he fell at 8 a.m. I tried to get him up and even succeeded in getting him on a chair, when he tried to get up from the chair to get into bed, he fell to his knees and we were right back where we started from. He did not want EMS called but I had no choice and called. These 3 very kind and thoughtful men came and lifted him and put him back in the bed. They have been here before and remembered us. They told me to call them anytime and they will come over and help me. They are just across the street, so it is an easy trip and they said it gets them out of the station. God does put wonderful souls in our midst. This morning I woke up and began to think about what I am going to do about our situation. I prayed and said “Lord, It’s too much.” I know I am tired and unhappy and ungrateful, and I feel so guilty and inadequate. But I also know that God will open a path for me and that my problems will be taken care of and my husband will be taken care of, and somehow, I will find the strength. I realized what Jesus meant when he said, “Don’t worry about tomorrow.” And as if in answer to my prayer, the realization came that I only need to worry about today. I can do one more day, it’s just today and God will give me strength for one more day. Tomorrow will bring its own problems, but I can handle today.
Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Matthew 7: 7 “Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks the door will be opened.”
Lord, we thank you for this day. We thank you for our blessings. Lord be with those who grieve, who are ill, who are burdened by life, who suffer hardship. May we remember to feed the hungry, to comfort the suffering, to help those who are lost. Be with the children going back to school, may they be safe from harm. Be with our church, may those that enter find you waiting to comfort, to give peace, to offer salvation and forgiveness. Bless our Pastor, our staff and our leaders, keep them safe and give them your inspiration and spirit. In the name of Jesus, Amen